"They are ghosts, as in haunted houses, and they give you shivers down the spine ... if they can, and you no longer know what you are up to. One must not accept that. One must kick them out vigorously. It is very sticky and insidious, but may the devil take them! Mother is stronger than all their dirty tricks — otherwise, I would have been dead long ago. So courage and clarity — and peace. Peace and clarity. And it all dissolves like miasmas from a marsh.
... Take heart. We are seeing the end of it — the end
is always difficult. The Asura struggles like a dying man. He tries all that he
can before dying. But he will not succeed."
Dear Micheline,
These last days were like a fury in the "subtle" worlds
— in fact since March 30 or 31, with a "peak" on April 4, when one of our white
pigeons died, attacked by blackbirds, chased and ... drowned in the septic tank!
This is the nauseating sign of M. & Co. I don't want to go into details. And the
other night, rain and a hail storm, with hailstones even on Sujata's bed through
the holes in the roof — we are repairing. But the force that attacked this house
and has been continuing to attack it for ten days or so, is strangely "focused,"
like a baleful beam. Yes, "they" must indeed understand the importance of this
place and that if we manage to establish a solid base here, it's their end.
Hence the fury. Everyone here feels or "sees" it. But it is almost charming
compared to Pondicherry: we have some free air to breathe, the body is light,
without this millstone around our necks and that kind of physical suffocation I
used to feel.
So, of course, the attack was simultaneously launched
on Land's End (I had felt it for several days and I was as if worried about this
place). "By chance," on Friday, the 7th evening,
as we were coming back from our walk through the forest and the tea plantations
below Land's End, we heard a lorry coming into Land's End: they loaded huge
tree-trunks. I loosened the driver's tongue: three trees cut. At this stage, I
still thought that it was limited and that the owner wanted to earn a few
thousand rupees for his everyday expenses, but... first you can imagine how
heartbreaking it is, those people should be publicly whipped, it is really the
reign of the
Shudras4 for whom nothing matters but money and they
devastate the earth, everywhere. But the next morning, "by chance," we saw half
a dozen woodcutters coming out of the forest and crossing the meadow in front of
Harwood — why did they go that way, right before our eyes? Truly the Grace looks
after everything. I questioned those workers: they were going to cut all the
trees of Land's End! Land's End's timber had been sold to a wheeler-dealer for
8,500 rupees. We rushed to Land's End with Roger to see the damage: three big
trees had already been cut, plus seven medium-sized ones. More than
sixty-year-old trees, gigantic eucalyptus trees.... Oh, if you could see that
hole in the little wood of Land's End, those torn stumps.... Then I grabbed the
dealer by the throat and offered him 13,000 rupees in cash for all the wood that
he had bought for 8,500 rupees — and not one more tree cut. We dismissed the
woodcutters. There only remained the corpses of two trees that they could not
load into their lorry the day before. Then we took on that loathesome owner
(meanwhile, Sujata and I had sent you a telegram): an obvious blackmail to
oblige us to buy his property for one
lakh5 rupees, which is fabulous, as the repair work amounts to
more than 50,000 rupees — the house is not worth more than 60,000 rupees. But
the house stripped of its forest is out of the question and I would not wish to
enter this devastation. Living trees, so beautiful, which took
so much time and love to grow, and then bang, for 8,500 rupees. I shall not
dwell on the horrible discussion with this individual and above all his witch of
a wife: two days of negotiations — rapacity, hearts of stone. Sujata was there
like Kali. (...)
Without Land's End, it was the ruin of our plans. We
needed these two houses to shelter our team, plus the machine and the
installations. Harwood was of no use without Land's End, we would have had to
leave India. If this didn't work out, it would have been a sign for me that
there was nothing to do but to leave India and create our centre elsewhere.
(...) Well, there is a grace called Micheline. In the meantime, I had phoned to
Delhi, but it was difficult for them to buy two houses one after the other. I
was ashamed to knock on doors in this way and it was with sadness that Sujata
sent you a telegram. We had never asked for money in our life. Oh, among the
attacks of this last fortnight, all my old formation of Sannyasi came back: I
who dream to live half-naked in a lonely hut, without seeing anybody, I was
faced with this crazy house (Harwood) under repair, with a thousand domestic
problems, and was about to buy a second crazy house, even crazier. If I was not
certain that Mother was leading me and that She has a plan here, all this would
be mad and more than mad for any sensible person. For four years I have not
ceased taking insane decisions without knowing why or where I am going, or
whether I am right or wrong. That is how things are. So the Sannyasi in all that
is put to a severe test. You know, one slams the door and goes off to the
forest, so lightly — but there is Mother's Work, I cannot just drop everything.
So I continue. Then there is Micheline and I sent a telegram to Micheline. All
the same, Sujata and I embrace you with gratitude — but for you, once more, the
Work would have been endangered or stopped.
... I intend to get on with my real work right away,
this second volume of the Agenda. I forget to tell you that I have
received such an enthusiastic letter from C.P.N. Singh6
regarding the marvellous machine. There will be no difficulty for the import
license. The most difficult is the custom's duty exemption: Kireet and C.P.N.
are moving heaven and earth, but the political climate here is very uncertain,
not to say chaotic. C.P.N. is under C.B.I. (the secret Indian police)
surveillance, which does not make things easier. We expect Indira to be arrested
before long — if it happens, it will be the signal of a big upheaval. But I
think Mother weighs all her steps and nothing will happen before all the pieces
of the jigsaw puzzle are exactly in place, our centre included.
One last thing is worrying me. Following Andre
Moris-set's registered letter, X told me very frankly that it had sown a kind of
uneasiness, to say the least, among all our friends in Paris: reactions of
confusion, almost of panic. One must understand once and for all that those
people's action is coupled with an occult action very recognisable by those who
know a little or are a little sensitive: their letters, their acts are
invariably accompanied by a vibration of fear. Such is the power of these
people. That is how they reign over the Ashram. Around all their acts, there is
a kind of muted threat, gluey and insidious, which has no human origin and makes
up all its "occult" force. Fear, threat and blackmail are the instruments of the
Asura. For four years now, I continually see this vibration playing on all sides
and doing its damage. When Barun + Counouma wrote to Laffont, it literally
created panic and confusion in the whole publishing house: they stopped the
printing of the first volume of the Agenda, then took it up again, then
stopped it again, as if they no longer knew what they were doing. Tantrics know
perfectly well how to handle this dirty,
very effective little vibration. Confusion and fear are its immediate effects.
When they write letters, their letters relay this vibration. So really, one must
not fall into this trap at the first opportunity. One must look at things coolly
and call Mother. Theirs is exactly the power of ghosts. They are ghosts, as in
haunted houses, and they give you shivers down the spine ... if they can, and
you no longer know what you are up to. One must not accept that. One must kick
them out vigorously. It is very sticky and insidious, but may the devil take
them! Mother is stronger than all their dirty tricks — otherwise, I would have
been dead long ago. So courage and clarity — and
peace. Peace and clarity. And it all
dissolves like miasmas from a marsh.
... Take heart. We are seeing the end of it — the end
is always difficult. The Asura struggles like a dying man. He tries all that he
can before dying. But he will not succeed.
With you
very deeply
with my heart full of gratitude
Satprem
Mother shoves our noses into Matter pitilessly and in
every detail. Probably it is right where the game is being played out!
http://www.aurobindo.ru/workings/satprem/carnets_of_an_apocalypse_0002_e.htm